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there’s a beautiful Promise out there
just waiting for you to accept
that i only wish you knew.
and a Father that’s welcoming you home.

so i realized that i really actually never update this site anymore. it’s a bit weird to look back and remember a time when i actually updated and ran about seven different sites and wrote poetry constantly. i guess it’s what got me through the day. haha. i suppose i’m due for a life update…if anyone reads this blog anymore…haha.

well, i’ll be a senior in college next fall. i think that’s probably the scariest statement i’ve ever made. at least when i was a senior in high school, i was fairly certain that i’d be going off to college–at least somewhere–so there was some restraint in my thoughts of what the next year would bring. however, there is a dearth of certainty for this coming year because there are too many options and too many decisions for me to make. there’s grad school, or teaching abroad, or straight-up teaching in public or a private school. and with each of those, there’s a million other choices to consider like where or what university/school and how in the world am i going to pay for everything. but, i guess, in all of this, i am comforted by my faith and trust in God…knowing that He’ll reveal to me the direction He wants me to take. but for a control freak like me, not knowing is excruciatingly painful.

okay, but i guess that’s a step ahead. as to life for the past…ohh–YEAR–that i haven’t updated…i have broken up with my boyfriend of two and a half years, written twenty pages about telomerase in yeast, finally visited southern california, participated in my brother’s wedding, and hopefully matured. throughout this whole year, though, God has really restored to me the JOY of following Him and the rest and peace life with Him brings. compared to last year, i really trusted and relied on God’s power instead of my own as i served in my fellowship and it helped me to put into perspective all of the other little things that usually got my nerves. of course, i still sin and falter at times, but i’m reminded of the joy in serving rather than viewing it as a burden.